Friday, February 27, 2015

Making Up Time

...Happiness...
Happiness, a tearm that can mean so many things to so many people. 
We always seem to judge those for doing the things that make them happy.
We all do different things to keep us happy.
Just be happy and forget everyone else.

...Date Night..
I went to supper with someone I never thought would be more than just a friend, or maybe even just an acquaintance. 
Turns out maybe there could be more. I smile and laugh with him. I can be myself and forget the world. He doesn't judge me which means a lot to me.
I want to take things slow, but spending time with him is definitely something I love.

...Money...
College = $$$$ 
and lots of it
My family is struggling with money.... This is pretty much a first for us. We have always had money and not had to stress about it. I think this is hitting me hard, because this year I really got the perspective of how much money is actually worth. I pray that we will make it through without to many complications. 

...Faith...
My faith keeps me grounded. When I was confirmed into my church it brought me closer to God. I love being able to take my problems to him. I feel a sense of security and love, because I know I am saved. 
I have done a lot of reading in my Bible. 
I have highlighted multiple verses that stick out to me. 
I am so glad I open my heart to The Lord. It was the best decision I ever made. 

...Sports...
Tonight is the district finials game. We are facing a tough opponent.
I do believe that we can win. I have heart and most of the others on the team do as well. 
I am blessed to play under such a wonderful coach all through my high school career.
He is like my second dad. Our families are close and would never trade that. 
I really hope that we can make an appearance at state this year. It will be a wonderful experience. 
Tonight I will give it my all and leave my heart on the court.  

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

I Have A Secret...

So a few weeks ago, a random user added me on snapchat. I like to make friends, so I didn't think anything of it. That may or may not be an issue. This person, let's call this person x. X and I have been talking since.I have always wanted a stranger to talk about my life to. This is nice. 
The problem with this, is that x is 8 years older than me. X isn't attractive. However X is very sweet and caring. X is easy to talk to. X seems to want more than just a random friendship.. This could be bad. I would be judged. If I don't act, no big deal right? But then there is the thought of what if X is "the one..." 

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Well This Sucks

We are two days into this week and I am already over it. Yesterday, EVERYTHING annoyed me. If somebody looked at me wrong, I almost lost it. It was one of those days where i was .5 seconds from losing it. Basketball usually puts me in a good mood, but not yesterday. Practice sucked. It took a major turn for the worse when I was informed that Levi bringing me ice cream wasn't his idea. It was two of my "friends" ideas. I'm sure why, but it really upset me when he went to them about me being upset. He then apologized over and over. I fell asleep watching "Friends", my addiction. 

When I woke up this morning, I was hoping for a great day. I plugged my phone into my speaker and began to jam. I did my makeup and my hair. I was feeling good. I got dressed, packed my bag for the game today, and headed to my car. Everything was great till I got to school. Levi brought me an "I'm sorry" breakfast. It was a great breakfast, but he can't buy my forgiveness. 

I am not entirely sure why I am so upset lately, maybe it is because Levi is very clingy. Maybe it is because people piss me off. Or maybe its the senioritus kicking in. I'm not sure, but all I do know is that I am ready to graduate and get the hell out of here and get to Chadron!